well it took a lot of work to be the ass that i am...

Thu, 01 Mar 2007 05:34:04 GMT

fall is here, hear the yell
back to school, ring the bell
bran new shoes, walking blues
climb the fence, book and pens
i can tell that we are gonna be friends

walk with me, suzy lee
through the park, by the tree
we will rest upon the ground
and look at all the bugs we've found
then safely walk to school
without a sound

well here we are, no one else
we walked to school all by ourselves
there's dirt on our uniforms
from chasing all the ants and worms
we clean up and now it's time to learn

numbers, letters, learn to spell
nouns, and books, and show and tell
at playtime we will throw the ball
back to class, through the hall
teacher marks our height against the wall

and we don't notice any time pass
we don't notice anything
we sit side by side in every class
teacher thinks that i sound funny
but she likes the way you sing

tonight i'll dream while i'm in bed
when silly thoughts go through my head
about the bugs and alphabet
and when i wake tomorrow i'll bet
that you and i will walk together again
cause i can tell that we are gonna be friends

i know, i know, i never do this.

Sun, 18 Feb 2007 08:19:05 GMT

i'm not good at keeping my mouth shut. i just fucking fucked up trying to tell a joke and the person was right there. why am i such an idiot?

Wed, 12 Jul 2006 03:07:19 GMT

1. In one sentence, explain what ended your last relationship:
i was attracted to another person and did not think it was fair.

2. What made you smile today?
probably something mike said.

3. What were you doing this morning at 8a.m.?
sleeping.

4. What were you doing 15 minutes ago?
bitching to hollywood.

5. Something that happened to you in 1985?
my mother gave birth to me.

6. Your prom night?
i gave the letter i wrote to the boy i loved.

7. Last thing you said aloud?
i love you.

8. Last thing someone else said aloud?
i love you to.

9. Worst thing currently on television:
anything involving fighting.

10. What was in the mail today?
nothing.

11. How many different beverages have you drank today?
2: vitamin water and a rumba energy drink.

12. What is your favorite part of the day?
i don't know.

13. Your current To-do list?
nothing... i have a lab report due.

14. Who is your best friend right now?
hollywood.

15. What color is your toothbrush?
uhh purply blue and white?

16. What is out your back door?
screened porch.

17. Any plans for Friday night?
i have class!

18. Least favorite place to shop?
uhhh... lots of places?

19. Last thing you bought?
lingerie

20. Last gift you received?
who knows.

21. Funniest thing you heard all day?
probably something mike said.

22. Favorite mug?
hollywood's.

23. What color is your front door?
fuck if i pay attention to that... black?

Spill Your Guts

1. First thing you did this morning?
got up and then after a phone call wanted to vomit my guts out.

2. Last thing you ate?:
half a phillie cheesesteak lean pocket.

3. Is your cell phone a piece of crap?
hell fucking no it's not.

4. What's something you look forward to most in the next 6 weeks?:
my summer class to be over.

5. What's annoying you right now?:
rob.

6. Do you believe in long-distance relationships?
yes, if the people involved are MATURE enough. (same answer as nick)

Q: Is there a person who is on your mind right now?
yep.

Q: Where is the last place you went?
back to hollywood's house.

Q: Who is the last person you called?
gringa.

Q: Do you look like your mom or dad?
dad.

Q: Do you have any siblings?
one half-sister.

Q: Do you smile often?
yes.

Q: Do you think that someone is thinking about you right now?
yep.

Q: Choose one (only one!) to have: love, beauty, or creativity.
love.

Q: Do you wish on stars?
yes.

Q: Do you untie your shoes every time you take them off?
never.

Q: What is the most disgusting food you've ever eaten?
who the fuck knows.

Q: Would you kill someone?
nope.

Q: When did you last cry?
days ago probably.

Q: Do you like your handwriting
yep.

Q: Are you a friendly person?
yep.

Q: Are you keeping a secret from the world?
of course.

Q: Whose bed did you sleep in last night?
hollywood's.

Q: What is the color of your bedsheets?
i don't know. i haven't slept in my own bed in months.

Q: What were you doing at 9 last night?
watching pirates of the carribbean: dead man's chest.

Q: I can't wait till...
i'm with all my friends from school again. i miss you, tim!

Q: Is Tom on your friends list?
tom sucks ass.

Q: Look to your left. What's there?
hollywood's sub woofer.

Q: Ever cried yourself to sleep?
of course.

Q: Ever cried on your friend's shoulder?
of course.

Q: Song that makes you cry?
many.

Q: Are you a normally happy person?
i think so.

Q: Has anyone besides your friends and family ever said "I love you" to you?
yep.

Q: Is your self-esteem extremely low?
i'd say it is just right.

Q: What color are your eyes?
brown.

Q: Long or Short Hair?
long.

Q: Current Music?
angry music.

I THINK: that population control is a must.
I KNOW: that most of the people in this world are terrible people.
I HAVE: the most wonderful boyfriend a girl could ask for.
I WISH: i had not fallen asleep so early last night.
I HATE: people who do not think for themselves.
I MISS: gringa.
I FEAR: nothing.
I HEAR: hollywood's compy fan.
I SEARCH: for enlightenment.
I WONDER: what was going through his mind.
I REGRET: my freshman year of college.
I LOVE: my family and friends.
I CARE: too many things.
I DANCE: and do not care.
I ALWAYS: lose things.
I SING: badly.
I CRY: a lot.
I FIGHT: not.
I WRITE: because i have to.
I CONFUSE: people constantly.
I LISTEN: to music.
I CAN USUALLY BE FOUND: smoking a cigarette.
I NEED: nothing.
I AM HAPPY ABOUT: life.

DESCRIBE YOUR

Jewelry worn daily: i wear studs in my ears that i never take out.

Cologne/Perfume: none.

CD in stereo right now: my ridiculous gangsta pants.

What are you wearing right now: my cvs shirt.

In my head: it's not a place you'd want to explore.

Wishing: i had more money.

After this: i'm going to smoke a cigarette.

Something you're looking forward to in the upcoming month: class being over!

Something that you are deathly afraid of: nothing.

Do you believe in love: most definately.

Do you believe in love at first sight: maybe.

Do you believe in forgiveness: yes.

If you could have any animal for a pet: kitty.

What's something/someone you wish you could understand better? people.

IN THE LAST 24 HOURS, HAVE YOU
1. Cried: no.
2. Bought something: yes, drinks.
3. Got sick: no. wanted to vomit? yes.
4. Sang: nope.
5. Eaten: yep.
6. Been kissed: yep.
7. Felt stupid: nope.
8. Wanted to tell someone you loved them, but didn't: nope.
9. Met someone new: i meet new people everyday at cvs/pharmacy.
10. Moved on: nope.
11. Talked to an ex: nope.
12. Missed an ex: nope.
13. Talked to someone you have a crush on: does hollywood count?
14. Had a serious talk: yes.
15. Missed someone: yes.
16. Hugged someone: yes.
17. Fought with your parents: nope.
18. Dreamed about someone you can't be with: nope.

WHO//Friends
01. Have you known the longest: katie sheffield, since i was born (21 years).
02. Do you argue the most with: hollywood... only because we're together constantly.
03. Do you always get along with: tim.
04. WHO Is the most trustworthy: hollywood.
05. Makes you laugh the most: hollywood and mike.
06. Has been there through all the hard times: gringa.
08. Has the coolest siblings: me, duh.
09. Is the most blunt: me.
10. Is the smartest: ?

Mon, 26 Jun 2006 04:06:53 GMT

cut cut cut. bleed bleed bleed.

better than actually doing it.

FUCK OFF AND DIE.

Fri, 09 Jun 2006 04:02:56 GMT

i just had one of the worst days i have had in a very long time. fuck everything.

Mon, 17 Apr 2006 21:27:58 GMT

quit bitching.

Fri, 14 Apr 2006 02:42:25 GMT

Google-search the phrase "I love (your name) because" and post your 5 (or so) favorite results.

1. I love Polly because we're GIMPS and that makes us cool, I think.
2. I love Polly because she never fails to surprise you & take risks.
3. I love Polly because she is sexy.
4. I love Polly because her music is original, relevent and also KICKS ASS.
5. I love Polly because of a thousand reasons.

Wed, 12 Apr 2006 18:15:15 GMT

The Wikipedia meme.
Go to Wikipedia.org In the Search box, type your birth month and day (but not year). List three events that happened on your birthday. List two birthdays, two deaths, and one holiday or observance.

February 27:

Events:
1. 1827 - The first Mardi Gras is celebrated in New Orleans, Louisiana.

2. 1900 - The FC Bayern München (Munich) is founded.

3. 1951 - The Twenty-second Amendment to the United States Constitution, limiting Presidents to two terms, is ratified.

Births:
1. 272 - Constantine I, Roman emperor
2. 1934 - Ralph Nader, American consumer activist

Deaths:
1. 1892 - Louis Vuitton, French luggage maker
2. 2003 - Fred Rogers (aka Mr. Rogers), American children's television actor

Holiday/Observance:
1. International Polar Bear Day.

21st bar birthday

Thu, 02 Mar 2006 20:38:48 GMT

me at the bar. free tequila "shot"?

Mon, 27 Feb 2006 18:57:07 GMT

let me just say that so far, this has been the most fantastic birthday i have ever had.

i'm 21, bitches!

Mon, 20 Feb 2006 18:57:02 GMT

happy 24th wedding anniversary to my mama and daddy today! :D

anyway. saturday night i had a "sober" night or whatever. hollywood, heidi, abdoul, gringa, and i all went cosmic/midnight bowling. it was ridiculously fun. i kicked everyone's ass at bowling. okay, abdoul and i were both kicking a lot of ass. w00t. hope everyone else had as wonderful a saturday! :D

shut up i like this song.

Thu, 16 Feb 2006 06:54:59 GMT

i had a fantastic valentine's day. hollywood spent 5 hours preparing me a delicious dinner. he even made cheesecake and chocolate covered strawberries from scratch. it was delicious and beautiful and amazing. he then proceeded to give me the sweetest little love note and a beautiful pink freshwater pearl bracelet. it was the nicest most loving and thoughtful thing anyone has ever done for me. what a wonderful valentine's day. :D

i fucking love this picture.

Thu, 09 Feb 2006 21:08:22 GMT

Mon, 30 Jan 2006 17:20:10 GMT

i am so god damn angry.

Fri, 13 Jan 2006 15:55:09 GMT

1. name:
2. birthday:
3. place of residence:
4. what makes you happy:
5. what are you listening to now/have listened to last:
6. do you read my lj:
7. if you do, what is particularly good/bad about it:
8. an interesting fact about you:
9. are you in love/have a crush at the moment:
10. favorite place to be:
11. favorite lyric:
12. best time of the year:

RECOMMEND
1. a film:
2. a book:
3. a band, a song and an album:

PLUS
1. one thing you like about me:
2. two things you like about yourself:
3. put this in your lj so i can tell you what i think of you.

what color is death?

Tue, 13 Dec 2005 19:27:45 GMT

(the shade of an ice pick sinking into flesh.)

i think i've fallen in love with acid bath.

exams are here! three down! one paper to revise and an exam to go! yayayayayay. i can't wait to go home. and see my at home friends. and see rob at home. and smoke lots and lots of dank out of mr. bong. and yes it will be amazing. and work at crappy ass cvs that i hate, but love at the same time because it's easy as shit and it makes me money. and i can't wait to buy christmas presents for everyone in my family and and and open presents too!

anyway. i have absolutely nothing to say. i learned to knit? that's kinda cool. i made a sweater. i'm gonna hopefully make more shit over winter break, although we are gipped out of a week this year.

christmas party wednesday night con gringa, hollywood, heidi, and abba dabba. mmmm peppermint schnapps with chocolate syrup to chase, it's going to be delicious.

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acid bath ->

a cloud of flies obscures the sun
a stone is dropped the dream undone
ripples grow and ride the tide
the dead things crawl from deep inside
with its dying sour breath
the burning smell of insect flesh

hungry things in circles crowd
around tv's turned up too loud

we are the dead next door
where the dirty needles shine and litter the floor
taste the light inject the lord
i cut myself again cause i'm so fucking bored
the dream is swirling, i'm alone
where the streets are paved with bone
buildings with a hundred eyes
watch me through the swarming flies
behind shades pulled down tight
things are growing without light

hungry things in circles crowd
around tv's turned up too loud

the dream sea has been poisoned
the stoplight flashes me red
innocence suffocated in its sleep
dr. seuss is dead

don't worry about this.

Mon, 07 Nov 2005 18:13:04 GMT

like anyone would be
i am flattered by your fascination with me
like any hot blooded woman
i have simply wanted an object to crave
but you
you're not allowed
you're uninvited
an unfortunate slight

must be strangely exciting
to watch the stoic squirm
must be somewhat heartening
to watch shepherd meet shepherd
but you
you're not allowed
you're uninvited
an unfortunate slight

like any uncharted territory
i must seem greatly intrigueing
you speak of my love like
you have experienced love like mine before
well this is not allowed
you're uninvited
an unfortunate slight

waiting for my hair to dry... then party!

Sun, 30 Oct 2005 02:26:47 GMT

1. Put a Playlist of your whole Music on "shuffle".
2. Find a picture of the first 20 appearing bands/performers.
3. Post the pics and let's see who can guess them properly.

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maybe a real entry? ...maybe.

Tue, 13 Sep 2005 13:59:17 GMT

hey all. last night/this morning was the first offical all-nighter of the semester. w00t. i didn't really have to, but i wanted to catch up on some stuff and get ahead of some stuff so i can do whatever i want tonight. i had a german take home test (easy), a 2-3 page essay for african american history (not as easy, but still pretty damn easy), and reading like two chapters. i also organized all my papers and shit into binders finally. woot.

the past 24 hours have been pretty darn good. let's see. i went to see the exorcism of emily rose. it was pretty good. much better than expected, but not amazing. definately realistic from what i have read up on about exorcisms and demonic possession. also, it the actual story of "emily rose" was pretty much the story it was based on, except it was based on a german girl named annaleise michel. anyway. stupid bitches behind me were talking, whispering, snickering, laughing a lot. i wanted to tell them to shut the fuck up or get out, but they would've gotten louder and completely ruined the entire movie. whatev.

had a wonderful, long, much-needed conversation with hollywood early this morning. we both feel much better and are relieved (nothing bad, i promise!).

talked to erin for .2 seconds on the phone and told her i loved her. because i do. i miss her. boyfriends and school and work take up so much time. but at least we understand that and because of that no one's feelings are being hurt and we know we are just as close as we always were. i can still tell her anything. that slow whore. she is the fucking amazing.

went home the past weekend. worked at the glamorous cvs/pharmacy from 8am-3pm saturday. wtf, i'm supposed to sleep til like... bumfuck who knows on saturdays. mannnn. at least i made some money money money.

hung out with rogb, hollywood, erin, and bill that weekend. yayayayay.

gringa missed me a lot. i missed her too. i'm so glad i live with her. yes... yes i am.

school is still going wonderfully except for a few slight problems, but nothing's perfect and i can deal (by bitching to everyone else who hates these people as much as i).

lolz. more homework time. still reading the first chapter of the two i need to read by 11:10 (need to go to bauman to print something then go to my 11:30 class). eep! i wanted to shower too. oh well looks like reading will suffer.

♥polly

the blood i bleed is black indeed.

God Bless America.

Fri, 09 Sep 2005 18:45:11 GMT

"I hate the way they portray us in the media. If you see a black family it says they are looting if you see a white family it says they are looking for food. And you know that it’s been 5 days because most of the people are black and even for me to complain … I would be a hypocrite because I would turn away from the TV because it’s too hard to watch. I’ve even been shopping before giving a donation and so right now I’m calling my business manager what is the biggest amount I can give. And just to imagine if I was down there, those are my people down there. So anybody out there who wants to help with the set up, the way that America is set up to help … The poor, the black people, the less well off as slow as possible. I mean, Red Cross is doing everything they can. We already realize a lot of the people that could help are at war now fighting another way and they’ve given them permission to go down and shoot us. George Bush doesn’t care about black people." -Kanye West

"I think it puts into question all of the Homeland Security and Northern Command planning for the last four years, because if we can't respond faster than this to an event we saw coming across the Gulf for days, then why do we think we're prepared to respond to a nuclear or biological attack?" -Newt Gingrich

it was grim.

Wed, 07 Sep 2005 06:42:54 GMT

my friend ben posted this in his livejournal. i just wanted to share:

George Bush doesn't care about black people. George Bush is the worst president we've had since Taft. Just look at what is tangible and all over the news today. War in Iraq: becoming more and more bloody with the American death toll growing rapidly (not to mention the Iraqi civilian death toll or the noncalculatable suffering and misery toll.) Gas prices are shooting through the roof by unchecked government spending and irresponsible tax breaks to large fossil fule companies as well as awful foerign policy decisions which have caused many of our former allies to take up diplomatic arms against us, which includes oil controling muslims and their tactics. And now look, devastation in New Orleans, possibly caused somewhat by an global warming and the effects of fossil fuels on our environment that the bush administration refuses to acknowledge, and our US government can't even help out our own Americans in New Orleans because the National Guard, a military unit established to stay at home in times of disaster such as these, is being used as a back door draft for Iraq and most of the US Army reserves are in Iraq fighting for what again? weapons of mass destruction? imminent threat? the holy grail? not only that but our stock market continues to plummet and our unemployment margin continues to rise as our social security is dissolving leaving our elderly without proper care and i could go on and on and on and on...
well, atleast our incompetant president is hard at work on trying to figure out he can clean up this mess...oh wait, he's on vacation in texas. wow, what a fucking idiot. he'll be remembered in history books as the jack ass who turned a multi-million dollar surplus into a multi billion dollar debt, who sent thousands of american soldiers to die for a fuzzy/vague/bogus reasoning (as well as ruining the lives of hundreds of thousands on iraqis), who didn't help a gas crisis worse than the one in the 70's before we were born, and who, after all that, was on vacation on his ranch in texas while new orleans drowned. anyone is favor of george bush, his presidency, or his policies is worthy due ridicule, mockery, and alienation. George Bush doesn't care about black people.

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goodnight, all.

fuck, i just woke up.

Sun, 04 Sep 2005 20:46:44 GMT

A - age you got your first kiss: 16
B - band listening to right now: opeth
C - crush: chris barto (hollywood)
D - dad's name: kent
E - easiest person to talk to: hollywood, erin, gringa
F - favorite bands at the moment: opeth, iron maiden, venom, modest mouse, any soul musicians
G - Gummi bears or gummi worms: bears
H - hometown: chapel hill, north carolina
I - instruments: piano, drumset, concert percussion, flute
K - kids: uhhh i don't know about that, but if i do, probably 1, maybe 2
L - longest car ride ever: bus to disney world, 12-14 hours
M - mom's name: christianna (chris)
N - nicknames: none really, pols, pol, pog
P - phobia[s]: none
Q - favorite quotes:
shake: why are we doing this?
frylock: because i wanna join the church up the street, and meatwad needs to learn some morals and values.
shake: look at him and tell me there's a god. (him=meatwad)
R - reason to smile: my friends, hollywood
S - song you sang last: wannabe - spicegirls (with brice and pascale)
T - time you woke up [today]: 3:30
U - unknown fact about me: i don't know, i'm a pretty open book
V - vegetable you hate: radish
W - worst habit(s): i still suck my thumb
X - x-rays you've had: dental, and my foot when i broke my pinky toe, my knee when i got hit by a car
Y - yummy food: macaroni and cheese
Z - zodiac sign: pisces

UPDATE!!!!!11!11111!!!!!!!!1

Sun, 28 Aug 2005 06:00:47 GMT

hey, everyone. i never update, but here goes. yayayayayayay!111111@3154@#!

the year is going over well so far. for those of you who don't know, i am back at guilford college as a junior. i'm a FUCKING JUNIOR. sweet lord.

pluses so far:
-my german teacher, dave limburg, and my african american history teacher, france, are AMAZING. i love them. france says shit a lot, in his south african accent. it makes me giggle. yayayayayayay. dave limburg is just the shit. don't question it.
-roni is now on speaking terms with me again. that, in and of itself is amazing.
-i live with gringa.
-hwood can stay here as long as he wants.
-counter-strike is no longer laggy.
-work is not that bad.

minuses so far:
-the lacrosse team makes me want to die.
-i don't want to do work.
-kris grey is a bitch.

anyway, all in all guilford is great right now. i missed my friends. but i miss erin and rogb now. <3 j00 2. pfft.

okay, i'm going to quit wasting your time. BYE!

ps: i miss sarah. i love you.

i'm hilarious.

Fri, 05 Aug 2005 23:27:48 GMT

the Wit
(78% dark, 39% spontaneous, 22% vulgar)

your humor style:
CLEAN | COMPLEX | DARK

You like things edgy, subtle, and smart. I guess that means you're
probably an intellectual, but don't take that to mean pretentious. You
realize 'dumb' can be witty--after all isn't that the Simpsons'
philosophy?--but rudeness for its own sake, 'gross-out' humor and most
other things found in a fraternity leave you totally flat.

I guess you just have a more cerebral approach than most. You have the perfect mindset for a joke writer or staff writer.

Your sense of humor takes the most thought to appreciate, but it's also the best, in my opinion.

PEOPLE LIKE YOU: Jon Stewart - Woody Allen - Ricky Gervais

AND FINALLY -- after you rate my test with a sweet, sweet '5' -- you must take this test next: The Genghis Khan Genetic Fitness Test. It's not mine, but it rocks.

My test tracked 3 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 99% on dark
You scored higher than 33% on spontaneous
You scored higher than 20% on vulgar

Link: The 3 Variable Funny Test written by jason_bateman on Ok Cupid

my dankshake brings all the boys to the yard.

Fri, 15 Jul 2005 06:43:34 GMT

Because i need some way to waste my time before harry potter!
1. Pick your birth month.
2. Cross out anything that doesn't apply to you. [(strike)the word or phrase here(/strike). Replace the () with < >, and the such.]
3. Bold what best applies to you.
4. Copy to your own journal, with all twelve months under a journal cut.

FEBRUARY:
Abstract thoughts. ~~Loves reality and abstract~~. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Temperamental. ~~Quiet, shy and humble~~. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. ~~Gets angry really easily but those not show it~~. Dislike unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. ~~Spendthrift~~. Tries to learn to show emotions.